I need to get my shit straight and start working on my portfolio. Next year I am going to Lakeland Community College so I could have time to put it together, and add more pieces to it to make it as strong as I can. I really want to go to Milwaukee Insitute of Art and Design after that, it is seriously the school of my dreams. I am thinking that I am going to major in art education with an emphasis on photography, or vise versa. I want to teach art at a high school, and eventually get my doctorite, and then become a college professor. Woo. I was talking to my art teacher today, about what we are doing right now, this pen and ink animal piece... And I have such little confidence in what I do, and she said that there is a lot of quality in what I have done already, more so then some kids even have in their entire project. Aye. I had told her awhile ago that I think my problem in everything is that I am too afraid to let go, and to trust myself. She says that I have talent and that if I would just do that, let go and trust myself, then I would more than likely suprise myself with the end result. She believes in me. She is really trying to help me, not only with my art, but with who I am, just helping me as a person, and she is honestly my favorite teacher. Ever. She said that I should make a conscience effort to believe in myself, to see the potential that I have, not to put myself down so much, just to... not expect failure, because all that with come from it is disappointment, exactly what I expect. Basically all I need is more confidence, and more trust in myself. I didn't even think that she thought I was very good at it. I guess I was wrong. I may not know exactly where my life is headed, yea, I have an idea of where I want it to go, but anything that happens, I want art in my life more than anything. I need it, it is seriously a part of me.